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MADDI
Age: 18
Location: Canada
Joined On: Jul 07, 2008
MSN * madison.stanul@hotmail.com
in the end, everyone disappears.
where's the kid i used to joke with, where's the boy i fell in love with? the one i was best friends with, the boy i could be myself around? the boy i threw my heart at. what have you done with him, is he gone and not coming back? cause i wish he was still here beside me i can't find him anywhere anymore. are you keeping him a secret, hiding him for rainy days? let me tell you, it's pouring in my mind. i know i miss that boy, that boy was one of my best friends and i didn't care what anyone said. he meant a lot to me, and that's all that's all that mattered. i'd always wanted what we had. the friendship we had meant so much to me. it slowly started to slip, and i slowly started to wonder. where had he gone, that boy i needed so much. i've always wanted a boy like that for a best friend like that. we'd be best friends, and not care what anyone said. even if people thought there was something between us, we'd laugh at look at them like they were crazy. we'd always be there for each other, no matter who or what happened to strut by.
wasted
i always thought you'd be there. for ever and for always. i finally thought i'd have someone that would stick around. but we know i'm never right. you were someone i could talk to without having to worry about my words being repeated. someone who was there when i needed support when i couldn't get through on my own. i told you how i felt you said you felt the same did you ever really mean anything you said or was it all just a lie did you go along with it just to make your ego bigger. all i've ever wanted is the truth and i finally got it. i finally found out how you feel. and nothing's ever felt worse. there's a first time for everything but this isn't the first time for heartbreak. but don't worry about me. wait, what am i saying you never did, so just keep doing exactly what you've been doing. i'll be gone and nothing will me different. you'll just go on with your life as if i never existed. i've already wasted too many words on you and so much time i'll never get back. it wouldn't make a difference if i made it so that i have no life left to waste.
winter was always my favourite.
Crawl in a ball, as small as you can. Wrap yourself in everything you’ve got. With all the warmth you can muster. Sit in pure bliss and beauty Just absorb it till you can’t take it. Take it all in for all it is. Analyze every little thing to its entirety. Just sit and stare. Out the window, Tiny little pieces of heavens’ frozen tears, Floating down together, in organized chaos Covering the ground, and turning it white. Try your best to loose yourself. Get lost in its endless effects on you. Grab something close to you Grab someone close to you. Just sit and loose your focus together. Sit and stare for hours on end until sleep overwhelms your mind. Drift away into your own Neverland. Let it be what you want it to be. It’ll be everything you’ve ever wanted, and then some. Most of the time it brings smiles. More often the not, it brings laughter and love. Only this time of year is too ironic for its own good. ‘Cause in some cases it brings back regrets. Things you wish you could take back or forget. The memories that were once imprinted in your mind, Come flooding back into your mind taking over. Tears burn the back of your eyes, And there’s that permanent sting in your throat. As much as you fight it, it’ll always be there. Forever invading your mind as soon as you think it’s gone for good. That feeling will always be there. As much as you want it to leave, it never will. It taunts you every day. Everyday you’re forced to live with regrets. Save yourself some trouble, and put on a smile. You won’t save yourself from breaking, But at least it’ll be your own little secret Something you keep to yourself and never let out. No one has to know. No one will ever know. Cause after all, Christmas only comes once a year. I never want to face New Years again.
once a skeptic, always a skeptic.
i don't think you know how much this kills me. but i can't be forgiving until you prove you care. i need to know you care. care enough to swallow your pride and whatever else you've got inside. show me that you care enough about our friendship. i don't think you understand what you mean to me. what you are to me. you were the reason i was staying strong. but everything's falling apart now that you're not around. you're not around to pick me up off my knees, cause i don't have any strength to get up. the fact that you feel like an ass, doesn't really mean a lot to me. it'll mean something when you decide to fix that. and fix everything else. you've got to show me you care enough to do something about it. i need to know if you want to make things better. there's so much going on underneath, where i plan to keep it. if you knew then maybe you'd care a little more. maybe things would change. but i need to know if you care enough about us, about our friendship first. cause if you don't i'd like to know. cause then i can stop waisting my time, save myself some pain. and move on with my life without you by my side.
martin
hi:) I recommend listening to this pop punk rock band
called "At Breakfast
http://www.purevolume.com/atbreakfast
thanks... good luck
posted Jun 03
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posted Apr 19
montaynia
not much justhanging out with friends watching movies
posted Jul 24
Saraaaaa.
heyy. i'm sara. i was just searching on Joshua
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posted Jul 23