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I am IMPERFECTION.

Hello my sweet little things, I am human with flaws running to my head and my toes.

I am far from being the ideal student, daughter and friend.

I make many mistakes and can't seem to do anything right without something going wrong.

I always mess up when I'm telling jokes, and I can't even speak correctly to save my life.

I am imperfection.

I have no grace to show when I walk.

A day doesn't go by that I don't trip on my own two feet.

My words are not always sweet; I can't even sugar-coat my opinions.

I am easily distracted by such simple things, and like to wander the depths of my mind.

I am imperfection.

My shoes and attire rarely match, threads hang off my clothes, but they symbolize my personality.

It suits my just fine.

I am human with flaws, I can't be perfect.

Not now or not ever.

And I really don't mind.

Hello and goodbye,

I am imperfect and that's the way I am. 

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I remember...

She asked me to go to that party with her, she said she didn't want to go alone. I told her i couldn't, I don't even remember the dumb reason I gave her.

We were best friends, we did everything together. I should have gone with her. She went alone. Her mom thought she was at my house, no one but me worried when she wasn't home in the morning.

When she got there, she knew a few people, not many. this party wasn't from our regular group of friends. She was a little shy, thought she'd try a little liquid courage. She had a few drinks and talked to a few more people. Someone offered her a toke, she knew it was wrong, but she wasn't passing up friends at a party where she didn't belong. She lit the lighter, and inhaled. She didn't like it at first. Made her cough till her eyes watered. She needed a drink, what better then a couple more beers.

She talked to a few more people, one being, what she thought, was this great funny guy. He asked her if she wanted to get out of there, told her it wasn't his 'scene'. She agreed, feeling a little wanted, maybe like she was actually starting to belong.

When they got to the car, she called shotgun, but instead was shoved in the backseat. There were a couple more guys in the car, friends she guessed. Some of the guys were grabbing at her thighs, you know, like the wanted some. she was a good looking girl, so she was used to the attention.

They drove down to the river. She felt a little uncomfortable, not safe. By the time she realized what was going on, it was to late. There were four of them and one of her. They all had a go at her in the backseat of his car. She tried to get them off, but it was useless. After they each had there turn, they dragged her out and beat her till she couldn't breathe.

If i had have gone with her, maybe it would have been different. Maybe i'd still have my best friend.

I remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground, and the worst thing boys could give you were cooties, but hell that was back when race issues' were who ran the fastest and war was a card game.

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Quotes, take[read]enjoii. :)

We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won’t. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off


I was nothing more than your favorite soundtrack I was played till I skipped and scratched on nearly every track You pulled me out whenever you needed something for a party or when life hurt you a little too much Well, I'm touched, but I'd love to be more than background music

Later, when they all ask her what happened, she'll lie.She'll say she never loved him, that it was all a ruse, a two-week crush that never got past scribbling his name on the back of her physics book.But she always mixes a little truth into it.She exists outside of love, in all of the space that those four tiny letters can't fill, where the people you can't live without are the ones who'll save you or kill you or both

Be original, be yourselfBecause the last time somone tried to make everyone the same,eleven million people died

Just because you're beautiful doesn't mean you don't do ugly things.Just because you're not pretty doesn't mean you don't have the beauty of a flower.Just because you're loud doesn't mean you hate silences.Just because you're quiet doesn't mean you have nothing to say.Just because people see you happy all the time doesn't mean you never cry yourself to sleep.Just because you are unhappy doesn't mean you can never be happy again.Just because you think it'll never happen, it just might.

Don't be so quick to judge me you only see what I choose to SHOW

If you want to know where your heart islook where your mind wanders

When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself. - Wayne Dyer

Oliver Wendell Holmes once said: Many people die with their music still IN them. Too often it is because they are always getting ready to live...Before they know it...time runs out

it's weird, like when you're in love, all of a sudden you're hearing in these love songs all like for the first time, you know, like the singer is suddenly just talking to you alone, reading your mind ... and when you're grieving it's the same thing. i'm in tune with all the sadness of the universe suddenly. you know, songs find you, poems find you, people find you

the greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're alive. - o. a. battista

you wear the tie because it never occurred to you not to. you eat eggs every morning but never at night. you feel excitement and companionship when rich men you've never met put a ball through a net or over a goal line, you feel guilty and a little suspicious every time you see a salvation army santa ringing his bell, you look down at least half a second if a woman leans foward and your stomach rumbles every time you drive by a golden arch, even if you weren't hungry before. everybody's programmed.

if i'm going to be alive, then i might as well be incredible; i want to do more than just exist..

You know, people always ask if you're okay, but they never really
expect the truth. Because the reality of the matter is, if I was okay,
you wouldn't really have to wonder.

look at the stars. They're the same stars as last week, last year. Same as when we were kids, when we weren't even born. In 100 years no one will ever know who we were, but they'll know those same stars

If someone thinks that love and peace is a cliché that must have been left behind in the sixties, that's his problem. Love and peace are eternal. – john lennon

Douglas Adams once wrote, he felt that his whole life was some kind of dream, and he sometimes wondered who's it was, and whether they were enjoying it

drama is a situation girls createthemselves, based on jealousy.

A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left. - Marilyn Monroe

You know what's wrong with you, miss whoever you are? You're chicken.
You're afraid to stick out your chin and say "people do fall in love,"
people do belong to each other because
that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness.
You call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing.
Yet, you're terrified that someone's going to put you in a cage.
Well baby, you're in a cage and you built it yourself.


Sweetheart, you can’t bullshit me.See, I’ve lied to myself enough to know when someone else is doing it.So, let’s try this again,and how about the truth this time?



:; i have more, but this is all you get, i'm thinking about painting these on my walls.
i'd like your thoughts, and opinions. 
feel free to tell me different ones if you'd like, greatly appreciated. :)

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Consider this.

Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit.

-Napoleon Hill

Consider this:

• Woody Allen-Academy award winning writer, producer and director-flunked motion picture production at New York University and the City College of New York. He also failed English at New York University.

• Leon Uris, author of the best seller Exodus, failed high school English 3 times.

• When Lucille Ball began studying to be an actress in 1927, she was told by the head instructor of the John Murray Anderson Drama School, " Try any other profession. Any other."

• In 1959, a Universal Pictures executive dismissed Clint Eastwood and Burt Reynolds at the same meeting with the following statements. To Burt Reynolds: "You have no talent." To Clint Eastwood: "You have a chip on your tooth, your adams apple sticks out to far and you talk to slow." As you no doubt know, Burt Reynolds and Clint Eastwood went on to become big stars in the movie industry.

• In 1944, Emmeline Snively, director of the Blue Book Modeling Agency, told modeling hopeful Norma Jean Baker (Marilyn Monroe), "You'd better learn secretarial work or else get married."

• Liv Ullman, who was nominated two times for the Academy Awards for Best Actress, failed an audition for the state theatre school in Norway. The judges told her she had no talent.

• Malcolm Forbes, the late editor-in-chief of Forbes magazine, one of the most successful business publications in the world, failed to make the staff of the school newspaper when he was an under graduate at Princeton University.

• In 1962, four nervous young musicians played their first record audition for the executives of the Decca Recording Company. The executives were not impressed. While turning down the british rock group called The Beatles, one executive said, "We don't like their sound. Groups of guitars are on their way out."

• Paul Cohen, Nashville "Artist and Repertoire Man" for Decca Records, while firing Buddy Holly from the Decca label in 1956, called Holly "The biggest no-talent I ever worked with." Twenty years later Rolling Stone called Holly, along with Chuck Berry, "The major influence on the rock music of the sixties."

• In 1954, Jimmy Denny, manager of the Grand Ole Opery, fired Elvis Presley after one performance. He told Presley, "You ain't goin' nowhere... son. You ought to go back to drivin' a truck." Elvis Presley went on to become the most popular singer in America.

• When Alexander Graham Bell invented the telephone in 1876, it did not ring off the hook with calls from potential  backers. After making a demonstration call President Rutherford Hayes said, "Thats an amazing invention, but who would ever want to use one of them?"

• When Thomas Edison invented the light bulb, he tried over 2,000 experiments before he got it to work. A young reporter asked him how it felt to fail so many times. he said, "I never failed once. I invented the light bulb. It just happened to be a 2,000-step process."

• John Milton became blind at age 44. Sixteen years later he wrote the classic Paradise Lost.

• After having lost both legs in an air crash, British fighter Douglas Bader rejoined the British royal Air Force with two artificial limbs. During World War II he was captured by the Germans three times-and three times he escaped.

History has demonstrated that the most notable winners usually encountered heart-breaking obstacles before they triumphed. They won because they refused to become discouraged by their defeats.

-B.C. Forbes

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once again, :)

I think I would rather rock 101 styles with synthetics and falsely large lashes than break it down in grey. 
Its an open opinion that will put your nervous existence on demand. You speak up, they speak up. We all already know that, obviously - its what gets you in trouble. 
But vicious slurs play there parts & thats ok. And still we have a lot to learn, farther more to go. 

& Honestly. I would rather be jumping in puddles or sitting with a crayon and paper in my lap while sipping a chilled tea. I would rather be a vintage junkie and adore it than walk out of a mall with jeans that the girl two lockers down already has. I would rather be out holding doors open, jumping the sidewalks and laughing at my own jokes than sitting on my ass fantasizing about it. I would rather- I would rather, to be frank. 
And rathering is what gets me in trouble. 
I don't give a fuck if you don't swing my style. I ran across your head, this is not a trick. Pay attention. 
But I don't appreciate it when some 40 year old shares her smokers cough in my ear as she spits out some old neglected word about how she doesn't like me. Then don't like me, just don't breathe on me. 
Or when someone tries to define the word originality and explain reasons of how I don't really fit. Good, bad explanations are no explanations at all. 

But I do like it when someone pops there phone cam in my face and says 'Cool Dood' or when the local girls think I've got something to give. 
Its very nice. It's worth my time. 


My advice is to learn to love anything about you that makes you different. Let it be your crooked fingers, if you like to dip your eggs in syrup, if you still play Pogs or if you were never one to hang with the girls - but always kicked it back with the guys. If you talk with a lisp, or like soggy cornflakes or even if your like me, and have the unforgiving brace face. 
Were all just fishes in a big bowl, now where would the fun be if we were all just golden. 

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