sooooo,
Posted November 25, 2006
well i havent written one of these things in a long time so i figured i'd put one up. what i am about to write i havent written or thougt about before this is just me in a little "emo" mood and feeling just writing. this is the kind of thing you write when you are sad its not a poem os a son i call it a "sonem"
Here it goes (please excuse the bad grammar)
I sit here alone, chilling at my computer thinking about how i could have done it differently i wish that it would have lasted longer so i could have shown her how much i feel she really was the girl of my dreams but if i only could have let her kjnow i think it woiuld have had a difference but now none of that matters those feeling i had are gone now or at least i think so because i felt the same way after the last time while last time hurt a lot worse this time it just hurts to know that it happened again anyone could have predictd it even me and her but we couldnt do anything to prevent it nothing we could have done to stop it but there were no words spoken between us past just simple questions and simple answers. one word responses thats not like me but i gave one i can pretend to be mad at her mad at the world and my life but i cant be mad because if it came down to it i would take her back a third time even if it meant losing another piece of my heart. i have given up so much for this girl i guess i am just a glutton for punishment, i just keep coming back for more. but i cant help thinkning that it could have been different and it hurts just to think about at least this time was produxtive but this time probably was worse because it went from perfect to shit in about .01 of a second1 and i dont know what caused i was left o-ut of the loop on thyis one and i was the one who should have known first there was something wron. but i think that everyone was left out of the loop everyone i have talked to doesnt knowwhat happend its a big mystery maybe i will write a book about my life and it'll become a bestseller because its such i good story but my life is basically a soap opera when you think about it in one relationship in the morning in another that night you know its just crazy what i have given up for maybe i just need to find another girl to go out with so that she'll come back to me or maybe i just need to be hit by a car near death expiriences bring the family together. i am sorry about what i did wrong if anything but i cant make it better if she doesnt talk to me my life is crazy right now my visioni getting blurry its time me to sign of xoxoxo - Greg
(sorry about the Gym Class Heroes line it fit so i used it)
just let me know what you think iight...
