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Comatose.

Time lost sitting

Waiting

Thinking

The hospitals walls sucking the life out of its paitents

Hope is not present.

The monitor beeps

Eyes remain closed

Silence remains so awkward

Not knowing what to say

My heart begins to break

Now looking at what made me laugh,cry mad and smile

Just lay there lifeless not with us.

Resting her eyes, her tired body remains there motionless

Undisturbed.

Anxiously we await for her to wake

Minutes.

Hours.

Days.

Weeks.

Reality is setting in

The world is still spinning

And im stuck in slow motion as the world speeds by.

Ive lost so much time

The walls took it away.

The clock couldnt be moving any faster.

As if it was inahurrytogettoacertaintime

When will i wake?

When will the nightmare end?

When will the clock stop?

When will the monitor stop beeping?

Noise Noise Noise

It pollutes my mind

As i sit in the waiting room

Nothing but flashbacks of the nightmare keep re-occuring in the corners of my mind

No thoughts have been processed

I swear my brain is rotted and no longer there

Killed by the stress and madness tears and the emotional roller coaster.

Time.

Its still going

And im still sitting waiting for the walls to melt

The humming florescent lights to burst

And the noise to swallow me whole.

Lifeless, but hope still remains.

Awaiting God to intervene and give us a miracle....

Mom back.

***Mom we miss you soo soo much!!! Hoping you will wake soon!!!***

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the kind of guy i wish that i could find =/

*grabs me by my pant pockets *calls me beautiful instead of hott *never thinks about hurting me *waits for me *makes me smile no matter what mood im in *watches chick flicks with me =] *gets into stupid fights then tell me he loves me *holds me by the waist *chooses being with me over his friends *walks with me holding my hand in public and in front of his friends *loves the sound of my voice *makes me laugh to the point where im crying and my tummy hurts *always be there for me *gives up everything just to see me *to be part of my life *wakes up next to me in the morning and still calls me beautiful *brings me soup when im sick *appreciates my cute phrases and words that i make up *shows me what love really means and how its supposed to be *trusts me *makes me draw hearts on my paper *dances with me *Makes me feel better after crying and still manages to make me smile *gives me a butterflies *understands who i really am *cares about me *allows me to be me *just looks at me and make my heart swoon *to be my reason for getting out of bed *takes my breathe away *cuddles with me *be honest with me *tell me how he really feels *never lets me fall *makes me feel confident about myself *sticks up for me *to not cheat on me *makes my pulse rise when ever he is around *gives me his sweatshirt when im cold *kisses me *never lets me go *doesnt make me cry all the time *dreams about me when we are apart *tells me about our future together supports me in what i do *meets me secretly when we arent supposed to see eachother *tells me its gonna be ok *takes me to the movies *tells me and all his friends how much he loves me ***wants to be my escape from reality when i need to =]

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rest in peace =,[

its dark shes alone no one here to help her screams just disappear as she screams at the top of her lungs she realizes no one is going to save her as she falls through the cracks of the earth she yells one last time shes falling under who will be there to take her hand in the end? everything around her begins to die everything she once knew disappears shes alone afraid and unsure what comes next? the death of her? as she lays underneath the grief of the world the wieght begins to sink down onto her someone please save her shes slipping under dark and hes alone hes screaming crying out for help wake up!!!! someone wake up please!!! help him!!! doesnt anyone see? only the good are dying!!!!! one less person near and dear to me just fade away into nothing more than just a memory killed off by societys failures one at a time day by day i learn how much the world can eat a person up and spit them out he was crying out to you why didnt you save him? now we are all left to suffer because of your mistakes killed by one single shot a blow to the head hes gone one slit to her wrist she left this world too why didnt anyone see this coming? whats wrong with society??? my friends suffer no more. - by me =/ rest in peace dillen =[ you will be missed...

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untitled.

dark and grey again no ambition to get up so cold to the touch i can see my breath in the air if only i could disappear into my warm blankets waking up to this is such a nightmare having to face another day without you there i swear i cannot breathe my heart will fail torn up inside confused while crying i lay there wondering why me? can i take on the day? can i deal with people today? have i reached my breaking point? i think im going mad tears run down my face one by one leaving nothing but a black smudge on the paper i dry my eyes i get up you havent gotten the best of me as hard as it may seem i go on to fight another day just to show that im better than you why dont you get it? why dont you see that i love you? i couldnt have imagined anything more that made me so happy you were the air i breathed you took that away you were my heart beat you took that too you were the smile on my face you smacked that right off my face tears continue to stream down my face i can no long make out these words puddles now form in the divets of the paper if only you could see how much you meant to me and how happy we could be i guess i will never know.... - by me =]

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again i wrote another =]

time ticks and counts down till i can see you i have never felt so alive your a breath of fresh air my heart beats erratically over the thought of you anticipation kills me smothering my feelings for you im suffocating but my heart is still beating close your eyes im next to you hold me never let go keep dreaming never let those go you have never seemd so real until you became my dreams i anxiously await for nightfall to come so i can be with you and disregaurd the rules my heart smiles the wind carries me to you my heart pounding im running towards you i sink into your arms embrace and i begin to cry i have never felt so alive your touch melts me into a puddle im just so in love with you a loud noise startles us and you begin to disappear slowly you begin to fade and it becomes very dark i open my eyes and the sun is up damnit there goes reality again time for another day i miss you more than ever awake and again filled with anticipation for nightfall to come to dance with you and be with you in my dreams all over again... - by me =]

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