April 23
I went to a training class today for work. I had to learn how to use this program for registering people for things. Boring stuff. I was the youngest one there. I'm twenty now, so I'm in that "in between" stage where you're still considered a kid if you're skating in a parking lot, but expected to handle adult resposibilities in a work place. So it was interesting being the "kid" amongst a group of adults. I thought, "Is this really how they act?" as they cut up about keeping beer cold enough to drink without a cooler on their retreat. Or rude jokes about girls on a picture the instructor brought in. I felt I had an inside view on how adults act when real kids aren't around. I felt like it was the first time I was considered "one of them" in a group situation. Almost akwardly too, as my desk mate looked to me for affirmation of punch lines I didn't think were that funny. Maybe I was just amazed that adults are just like kids when there aren't any looking. I kept thinking about this throughout the day. Do we really ever grow up? Or, what is growing up? Is it just learning when to be yourself? Instead of showing your aggression by carving in a desk or talking back to a teacher, you just curse the slow driver in front of you, or bad mouth your boss. You still joke with your friends and enjoy a good time. I always felt there was a line between kids and adults. Almost like we were two separate beings. My teenage years are over now and I don't feel I've changed into someone different. Maybe I have more responsibilities, and my tastes have changed, but I still feel the same. In class today, I found myself tapping on the desk with my face in my hand wondering when I would be able to eat luch. Just like highschool.
I just got back from skating in the church parking lot around my block. I asked some ladies talking in front of the church if it would be alright and they confirmed. I was glad I didn't get pushed away. It was nice to be on the receiving end of some good ol' christian love. Now that I think about it, its sad that I actually expected to get turned down. I won't get into that right now though. I don't know why, but something the church lady said to me stayed on my mind for some time. She said all the "other kids" skate there, so it shouldn't be a problem. Other kids? So was she calling me a kid? Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining or offended or anything like that. That's not what I was thinking about. It was just a different attitude then the one earlier today. This morning I was an adult. This evening I was another kid. Did they not see the beard?! I guess not. Was it because skateboarding is a kid thing? AM I A KID?? Maybe I'm reading too much into it. I know I'm just in that annoying in-between stage. I still can't get over the whole growing up thing. Do we really ever grow up? I mean change, simply because of our age? Or do some of us just get tired? Do the mean playground bullies just become the annoying cocky guys who keep bossing little kids around?
Maybe we should listen to the deaf children and try our best to never grow up.
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Terry Y
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April 23
That's right. This June, we're going on tour to Tennessee. We'll be traveling from June 17th to the 22nd. If you want to book us for any of those dates, please contact us. If you're a fan, then get ready! we're coming to see you!!!!
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