'Masochist' Lyrics
Posted June 30, 2008
(Appears on back of booklet) Masochist - This is the disgust I feel towards the world I have apprehended. That we are all masochists drawing to a quality of being arrested emotionally and that we are all sadists because we receive pleasure from taking others into such emotional situations. We are all marked with this sickness, so ashamed at the state of our own consciousness that we burden ourselves with seeking out methods to alleviate the pain and suffering of others. We do this not as an act of kindness but as an act of self interest, to purify ourselves of sin, to wash away the things we hide from those that watch, and even those we will never face contact with. We do not know of their anguish, we just presume we do and act in our best intelligence, which is at best an action of incompetence. Our self-interest is a consummation of our sub-conscious. Our beliefs are not our own but have been instilled internally through archetypes and social conditioning. We only fantasize for our own self-fulfillment. The very belief in faith is the purest form of selfishness, greed, and simple-minded acquisitiveness. On an intimate level we are able to conquer our obstacles, while on a mass scale our combat to death is used to commit genocide, murder, atrocities, war, and savagery. We allow famine, pestilence, and plague. We are cultivated into a wave of hatred, which is an esoteric of hidden agendas to conceal their motives with a blinding light of love. The very element that makes us human is the very thing that makes us animal. Our generation has failed miserably, not providing the world with any form of counter-culture necessary to its advancement. Our underground sub-cultures are based upon superficiality. We aren't aggregated because we are angry, young, poor, disgusted, exiled, freaks, or open-minded. We have come together based on self-actualization. Interested only fashion, drugs, alcohol, sex, and our own self-image...Just like everyone else. We conform to groups of zealous beliefs that we did not draw from our own conclusions. The group is essential to ones continuance because we do not possess the strength to rely on ourselves. There is nothing which makes us different, special, or better than anyone because even our underground societies are infected with the disease of social apathy. We are the generation of stagnation. We believe that problems will take care of themselves, whether it be from god himself or from a source of authority. How many of you will read this and become affected by group-polarity only to allow your beliefs to be reaffirmed. Discard this as blasphemy. Will I push you to question everything or only to become more close-minded and assured in your bigotry? You will turn to your crutch whatever it is, religion, sex which is mistaken for love, an altered state of mind through substances that are not natural to your body, or your so called movements that allow you to feel better about yourself. While on a larger scale you affect those negatively around you with your hypocritical convictions, fascism and conformity. Why do we take these things which should be taken in moderation to such excess? Our excess is a bloodlust which is crumbling our world. We must realize we do not need such things. Everything we need is inside of our hearts. I will rely on nothing external in this world. I will stay strong on my own, only turning to myself and my heart through my endless despair. While you will depend on your outlets for healing and assurance, which in turn only hurt you more. You are the Masochist. I'd rather stand on my feet fighting for what I believe in than live on my knees praying for things to get better. -Zak Vargas
All lyrics written by Zak Vargas..
1. Disgust - No Lyrics
2. Masochist - The trap between her legs is her attention grabber. Just an adaptation. Not a reason to stab her. But why does my mind consider this an evolutionary trait? Why must she suffer from this fate? I feel sedated in the frailness of her stature. As I capture the delicateness of her skin, her frailties - my sin. Oh god, she fucked me wild because I'm just a child. I'm just a child playing a game. I must be insane if I'm just fucking for the pain. Why does she receive the blame if I'm just the same? This is torture as we torch her. As we torch her this is torture. This is torture as we torch her. Torture/Torch her. How long will she put up with this? When my kiss turns to piss? Why do we get of to this? This simply is not love. Biting, scratching, beating, choking, fucking. A constant cycle. She takes out her aggressions physically because she's sick of living her life subserviently. She bruised me when she sucked me and abused me when she fucked me. She bruised me when she sucked me and abused me when she fucked me. We all live as masochists. We all live as sadists, it's madness. In this midst of all of this sexual bliss affection is missed. We all live constricted because we're addicted to the mental pain that's inflicted. Gratification through temptation and its sensation. Incapable of relations. We create false elations. Someone pays for this terribly. The pain becomes unbearably hard. We're all full of these scars. I'll end the hurt with glass shards. I'll bleed it dry as I gouge my eyes. I'll bleed it dry as I gouge my eyes. I'll cut away the pain I despise. I'll cut away the pain I despise. Never will I live for sex, pain and lies. Never will I live for sex, pain and lies. Never will I hurt from the plague of sex and lies. Never will I live for pleasure and its lies. Never will I live for disgust, filth and lies. Never will I hurt from you and your lies.
3. Filthy - For every child touched by her tainted tongue. For every orgasm that's reached my ears. For every night children lay to dream of her lust, she'll be fucked to death. Get fucked to death, that fucking bitch is gonna pay. She's heartless, she's empty, she's hollow. All substance traded for superficiality. She can crawl into my bed but she can never crawl into my heart. I'll be the last thing she sees before she dies. She's the destroyer of hope. Turning wet dreams into nightmares. What's been etched into our skin will be transposed upon her, as I tear at her flesh and rip that fucking slut. Tear at her flesh, rip that fucking slut. Tear at her flesh. Rest in piece, that fucking slut. She's buried 6 feet closer to hell. She fucked to the grave. Dig a ditch and bury the bitch.
4. Malignancy – The human species would thrive better in isolation, retarded, and without the capability of annunciation. How would we interact with one another? With joy and happiness. So could it be that what's inferior is really superior? A supreme being? Socialization is a form of regression. Therefore the measure is nonexistent for progression. This world can't bring me to my knees when it's dead to me. Our society's apathy will never get the best of me. So I live in confinement because this is bullshit, I repent. I look at a crowd of empty faces, kids who just don't give a shit. Free thought is scorned upon. If you're a victim you're a pawn. Can't cut loose with no excuse. Unaccountable, we're enslaved and can't be saved when we believe, "Everything happens for a reason." To not accept our fate is moral treason. We turn a blind eye to the problems of man because it's all part of gods "master plan." Centuries of religious archetypes is how this all began. We must break free from the shackles of thought to fucking understand. That our fear of death is what fucking kills us. We're slaves to our gods and we can never be free of the tyranny of bigotry within the bourgeoisie, where a system based on greed is fucking drowning me. Just because you close your eyes doesn't mean the world disappears. We're truly blind when our imaginations are filled with fears. I believe in myself and my heart, and not religious zealotry that is used to rule you and me, where God is made into a cheap fucking whore. Our lord should deserve more, so I broke free from these fallacies. I don't need a savior because I saved myself.
5. Triumph - My thumbs are in your eyes and they keep fucking pushing! How could you do this to me? After all we aspired to be. I burnt alive and the flames were the warmth you showed me. The flames rise as our friendship dies, no longer will I be the one who cries. So tonight I set your bed aflame, I live to watch you burn. So tonight I set your bed aflame, only in death will you learn. Face your punishment cause there is no forgiveness. I will watch your tortured existence. I live to watch you burn. I live to watch you burn. Your misery will take a blade to your skin. I'll be there to guide you through mutilation. Decapitation. From the ground I can touch the sky! Despite this fight I will never die! I hope you get fucked dead. This is hell, your severed body is left to dwell. Not a trick, just a whore choking on a dick. Your desires led to me building fires in your home, you shouldn't sleep alone. I fucking triumph, suck on that!
6. Theocracy - We fucking worship our religion rather than our lord. How long can this be ignored? Blindly allowing persecution to be restored. We can't afford to come to this accord! How long will our nation allow the exploitation of their own lord for the murder and profit of those in charge? FUCK! How long will authority serve as our priests? The deceased just increase but we're too controlled by fear to detach from the evils of superstition even though we have good intentions. Degradation of those with dedication because "most all those under creation will not see salvation." -This form of humanity has become fundamentalists and it's insanity. Discrimination against anything opposing their nation "under god." The location of Babylon must be this congregation. We need come to the realization that our misinterpretation will lead to "revelations." How many devastations must occur before we hold our beliefs accountable for eradication? You pigs, I'll fucking slaughter you. Pressure us into this association. Forced upon us with desperation through our own system of education, not providing us with enough information. An organization of infestation. Operation theocratic nation must face obliteration and its desecration. You've chained your own lord in shackles to fight unjust wars for profit in the name of false prophets. Nothing of mankind is divine and in time we will see that we do not protect human life because of this hypocrisy. There is no value for life when we're stuck in this strife fighting wars of gods instead of things like aids. Just like how we allowed anti-Semitic raids because of religious crusades. Please do some investigation, use your imagination to pick apart this infatuation with manifestation.
7. Xenophobia - 75 percent approve of this torment, a cement wall so aliens will stop their crawl, so tall they can't climb above. Shove them back, there's no love here. Because our fears endless years of tears will fall upon us. Building a wall to keep them out? I'm highly in doubt. More like building a wall to keep us in because we're still judging by skin and so-called "moralists" are blind of the sin. How can God justify this? Created to exist not to be dismissed into an abyss of our ignorance. The wickedness is knowing of their gratefulness. Suppressing as this nation is regressing. Stuck in reverse can we inverse this curse? My family is not accepted in land that was once there's before they were redirected, disrespected, rejected, and infected, dissected to be contrived. Manifest Destiny has survived and is being revived. In a nation of all this evil I demand an upheaval! If this wall was built before I was born I wouldn't even be alive to mourn.
8. Incinerate - In the end you will be laid to rest where you belong. Bathed in flames for your hatred and your ignorance. You're the symbol of masculinity, but I can beat King Kong. I will stand up for those who suffer. I will stand up for those who have suffered, been crucified by your insecurities. You can't say what love is when you're castrated, fuckers. Hatchets castrating the fuckers. The voice that I've been given, I will use to crush bigotry and defeat intolerance. With bodies ablaze, it's sad no one's there to push you in the flames. So throw another stick in and I swear with every once of strength I have. I will burn you all alive, in the sticks lays your worthless bodies, screaming, keep fucking screaming. And with your eyeballs boiling...Who's the fucking faggot now
9. Sadist - Today we have all became murderers. Can you imagine paralysis through your own suffocation? Choking to death with no escape, as you're tortured even you will believe you're guilty of rape. Unable to move to struggle from the pain. If only they believed you were insane. Your eyes won't even open to let the tears out, as if your glands were ripped out or in a prolonged drought. No one gives a fuck and no one gives a shit. You deserve it, even through your innocence. The truth doesn't matter because lies can shatter. Wrongfully accused. The prosecutor's powers abused. They can't keep their jobs if they fucking lose. But we're all victims, succumbed to our primitive emotions, such a fucking disgrace. If the system is flawed why must we still act abroad and allow this fraud? Why are we still so attached to the past? The human mind is unsurpassed. Hypocrites, we're eat their bullshit, we allow anyone to suck our dicks. Fuck this old way of thinking, if this is all in the name of god why are you drinking? Why are you getting fucked like a whore and still begging for more? You crave your dick so thick, I long for a brick to this fucking trick. You make the move down south just to taste cock in your mouth. The deepest question you will ever ask is "should we fuck fast or try to make it last?" All I can hear in my head is a shotgun blast. All I can see in my head is blood splattered so vast. Your claimed religion is stretched so thin. Your morals are just drawn from a book. You pick and chose which ones you want and never take a second look. So through your eyes the lord in the skies justifies your veracious lies. (Reprise and promiscuity, Christianity is a plague of ambiguity.) But does it even matter to you? To worship the lord without religion is a fucking taboo. You've become so askew asking forgiveness for everything you do. I won't subdue, I won't misconstrue, our way of thinking is long overdue. This is a blinding light. This is an endless fight.
10. Swine - No it's not fair that we will never see our share. That our earnings are in the hands of those who don't care. So planes can fly in the air dropping bombs and waging warfare. Declare despair on the unaware to continue to spend like trillionaires. While using prayer, but the lord isn't there to be compared and to be used to scare anyone who even dares. Bitches get stitches, the world is fucked as it twitches. Bitches get stitches, our mother is fucked as she twitches. Bitches get stitches, she's fucked as she twitches. The wrath of god is unleashed in the hands of man. This is their plans to infect the lands to force everyone to meet their demands. But god would not stand for this malice, for government buildings to be his palace. Suck the phallus dry because by 2007 your oil empire will slowly die. Once it does we'll realize that this was just lies. Until then we'll drink oil at communion. We've convinced ourselves that excess is no sin, but can we begin to imagine tyranny with no end? I detest this wickedness and I detest your wretchedness! Our country is a weapon of mass destruction. Religion is a weapon of mass destruction. Greed is a weapon of mass destruction. Fear is a weapon of mass destruction. Hatred is a weapon of mass destruction. Apathy is a weapon of mass destruction. You are a weapon of mass destruction. I am a weapon of mass destruction.
